Hi. First of all let me say how pleased I am that I can contact you directly to tell you these things personally. I believe it is in my own good interest to be as honest with myself as possible, and not only that - but I also believe that in this case my honesty can have a double-benefit, because I believe it to be all positive - what I am about to say...
I am a man, and I was born a man. I am 29 years old. So far, I have had several girlfriends in my life, the last of which was about seven years ago. Since then, I have been heavily sedated on drugs of all kinds, I believe I have been hiding from my true self... because it is only lately, in the past year or two years, that I have become awake to my gay side. I am no gay. I love women. But I have only recently begun to realize just to what extent I also love men, and it just may be that YOU, sir, are one of the finest examples of hard-man I have ever laid my eyes upon.
I have yet to be with a man, but as I fantasize about these things, I find myself much more attracted to the idea of being with YOU sir... I find you so masculine, so dominant, so beautiful - and YET you seem to retain the BEST of BOTH WORLDS (and although perhaps many people when they say these words have in their minds the intention of the cliche of you having a pussy - this is not what I mean - but I mean your gentle way of carrying yourself... ) I mean you are Tough, but not a brute. You are strong, but not crude. You are dominant and powerful, yet do not reek of decadence as do most poweful icons... Quite the opposite - I believe you have managed to be something not only completely new - but also arousing, exciting, and extremely LOVABLE in my own little gay fashion - in a completely new way. I can't believe how much love I could find myself throwing at you, giving you - succumbing to you.
Perhaps you might be turned off by my throwing myself at your feet like this... but I am doing so because I believe it is the fair thing to do - because my entire life I have been hiding from my homosexual side - and you sir - have managed to get me EVEN CLOSER to it. If there is anything I wish I could do - it is get to know you, just so I could love you as I feel I already do SO much.
Wow, man... You are so amazing, I am simply gobsmacked... awe-stricken, jaw-dropped...
Really, the way you emphasize the beautiful parts of masculinity - I simply take my hat off, and if you were to say a word - the rest of my attire... ^_^
Just in case you wonder how I look - http://www.myspace.com/thefuturevampire
also quite a few pictures of mine in http://toscanna.spaces.live.com/
I guess that's all I can say so far...
I wish I'll get to meet you someday... and a lot more... wow...
I respect you so much!
Respect!
Showing posts with label frontiers. Show all posts
Showing posts with label frontiers. Show all posts
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
Amazing!
Hey!
Just came across your site and am truly amazed. I'm not sure if you've ever thought of this, but if YOU got pregnant, you would be a fucking millionaire! A man (who by all appearances IS a man) with a uterus and ovaries, carrying a child ... (because, of course you are genetically female and still have all your "girl parts") Holy shit ...
Anyway, I wanted to say "hi" and I think you're amazing. (I'm a genetic female and I can honestly say I have never seen something like this before. I have seen many M to F transexuals, but never F to M.) Do you plan to have surgery (down below) to complete your transformation at some point?
Have a great day!
Just came across your site and am truly amazed. I'm not sure if you've ever thought of this, but if YOU got pregnant, you would be a fucking millionaire! A man (who by all appearances IS a man) with a uterus and ovaries, carrying a child ... (because, of course you are genetically female and still have all your "girl parts") Holy shit ...
Anyway, I wanted to say "hi" and I think you're amazing. (I'm a genetic female and I can honestly say I have never seen something like this before. I have seen many M to F transexuals, but never F to M.) Do you plan to have surgery (down below) to complete your transformation at some point?
Have a great day!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Alex from UK.
Hey Buck! Just wanted to say you are SUCH a huge hero to me. I'm a teenage FTM and I'm comfortable in my masculinity even though I don't look it but people give me shit for it. I think you're so amazing for standing up and being exactly who you want to be no matter what people think and being so secure in your body and achieving how you always dreamed of looking! You make me feel like there's always hope and you even make me feel proud to be trans rather than a biological guy. Thank you so much, you're incredble. Keep up the good work man! x
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Admiration
Hi,
You of course don't know me and you are getting this email as a result of your work as a porn star. I've loved all the small trailers you have done. I also listened to your interviews as many as I could find.
I'm impressed and you made me cry. Cry with that special kind of joy/grief, relief that comes with self acceptance and love.
You are the first sexual images of myself that I have ever had. I was starting to wonder if I will ever be with anyone again since I came out. I'm having a harder time crying at all since I started T in Nov. and I"m pre-op, but your work did it man.
I"m FTM, and I'm old. 47. It took me that long to figure it out with all the 'help' I got, besides the other issues that are part of figuring things out for me and where I came from. My dad drank too. Since he has died, I have had much better conversations and he comes in my dreams, I think helping me out in my transition. I grew up with him, riding motorcycles and taking them apart and back together again. It was cool to hear that your dad supports you and celebrates you!!
I've sent your interview with Ian Harvie to my girlfriend who has been going into struggles over my coming out.
We've been together for 13 years, raised my nephew who came to us at age 9 and is now 21 and grown up.
She isn't ready to see my 'clit' pics, since it has been growing.
I've been in Seattle for the last 2 1/2 years studying acupuncture, but this transition was part of the struggles I was having at the school, that led to me not making it. It was an intense program that I as a person I needed more support, but wasn't getting it.
They wanted me to be more professional. Whatever that meant. Basically, later, they tell me that I needed to shave my small beard, that is just a part of me, and I don't think about it. So, I was dealing with some discrimination there.
Well, that's why I'm here and my partner is still in Alaska. Where I want to be, if we can work out our transition .
It helps if I'm home for sure, but as it is, I'm in Seattle getting good support.
Anyway, the interview has been really helpful to her.
How it affected me seeing a model of someone who is proud of who they are!!! And Trans!!, was to really turn a curve that I couldn't see that was in the road.
I have been going to the group at Ingersoll, and I haven't heard any of this kind of pride that you have shared. This is all on top of my meeting a really cool mtf. She really is awesome, She has been doing spiritual work for the last 30 years and has been honored and respected by the Native people who she is in relationship with. Her name is Finicia and she is really beautiful.
http;//www.pullingforwildflowers.org.
I mention her becasue there are very few people who do honor trans people. But she honors herself, and that was beautiful to see.
I now can love my pussy, well, even more! I see that I can still be the man I am and be proud, not letting anyone f*k with me. I've known a long time that penis and clits are basically the same, but the clit is more spread out throughout the pelvic floor and vagina.
Like a grasshopper! So, I'm in total agreement with you. I don't want no-one messing with my clit! I hope that mine can grow of course:-)
I am so inspired by your work, and I'm in a hiatus in my work, that I am seriously considering the kind of work you are doing.
I see that this has been healing. I id as a healer, but of a deep natured kind. This culture needs a lot of healing,
I like sex too, I'm not too shy, I think I can do it. But, it will have to wait some time. I still need to go through the transition, grow some hair, work on my muscular, get official. It will come.
I'll order some of your films as soon as I can afford them, meanwhile, I'm spreading the word.
Thank you very much!. May you be well blessed in your friends and family,
"I am selfish, impatient, and a little unpredictable. I make mistakes, sometimes I am out of control, and at times a bit hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve my best." -adapted from a Marilyn Monroe quote
You of course don't know me and you are getting this email as a result of your work as a porn star. I've loved all the small trailers you have done. I also listened to your interviews as many as I could find.
I'm impressed and you made me cry. Cry with that special kind of joy/grief, relief that comes with self acceptance and love.
You are the first sexual images of myself that I have ever had. I was starting to wonder if I will ever be with anyone again since I came out. I'm having a harder time crying at all since I started T in Nov. and I"m pre-op, but your work did it man.
I"m FTM, and I'm old. 47. It took me that long to figure it out with all the 'help' I got, besides the other issues that are part of figuring things out for me and where I came from. My dad drank too. Since he has died, I have had much better conversations and he comes in my dreams, I think helping me out in my transition. I grew up with him, riding motorcycles and taking them apart and back together again. It was cool to hear that your dad supports you and celebrates you!!
I've sent your interview with Ian Harvie to my girlfriend who has been going into struggles over my coming out.
We've been together for 13 years, raised my nephew who came to us at age 9 and is now 21 and grown up.
She isn't ready to see my 'clit' pics, since it has been growing.
I've been in Seattle for the last 2 1/2 years studying acupuncture, but this transition was part of the struggles I was having at the school, that led to me not making it. It was an intense program that I as a person I needed more support, but wasn't getting it.
They wanted me to be more professional. Whatever that meant. Basically, later, they tell me that I needed to shave my small beard, that is just a part of me, and I don't think about it. So, I was dealing with some discrimination there.
Well, that's why I'm here and my partner is still in Alaska. Where I want to be, if we can work out our transition .
It helps if I'm home for sure, but as it is, I'm in Seattle getting good support.
Anyway, the interview has been really helpful to her.
How it affected me seeing a model of someone who is proud of who they are!!! And Trans!!, was to really turn a curve that I couldn't see that was in the road.
I have been going to the group at Ingersoll, and I haven't heard any of this kind of pride that you have shared. This is all on top of my meeting a really cool mtf. She really is awesome, She has been doing spiritual work for the last 30 years and has been honored and respected by the Native people who she is in relationship with. Her name is Finicia and she is really beautiful.
http;//www.pullingforwildflowers.org.
I mention her becasue there are very few people who do honor trans people. But she honors herself, and that was beautiful to see.
I now can love my pussy, well, even more! I see that I can still be the man I am and be proud, not letting anyone f*k with me. I've known a long time that penis and clits are basically the same, but the clit is more spread out throughout the pelvic floor and vagina.
Like a grasshopper! So, I'm in total agreement with you. I don't want no-one messing with my clit! I hope that mine can grow of course:-)
I am so inspired by your work, and I'm in a hiatus in my work, that I am seriously considering the kind of work you are doing.
I see that this has been healing. I id as a healer, but of a deep natured kind. This culture needs a lot of healing,
I like sex too, I'm not too shy, I think I can do it. But, it will have to wait some time. I still need to go through the transition, grow some hair, work on my muscular, get official. It will come.
I'll order some of your films as soon as I can afford them, meanwhile, I'm spreading the word.
Thank you very much!. May you be well blessed in your friends and family,
"I am selfish, impatient, and a little unpredictable. I make mistakes, sometimes I am out of control, and at times a bit hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve my best." -adapted from a Marilyn Monroe quote
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Frontiers Magazine
Hey, I'm in this week's edition of Frontiers Magazine!
Check me out in the Naked City section...
WOOF!
Buck
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)