So today I received this email from a young FTM. In the wake of all these gay suicides it really makes me feel that I am doing a good service. It is strange in one respect, That I started out just by making my adult films. That I was focused on making something sexy. Showing another side of sexuality in the adult entertainment world. I never in a million years would think that I would be the one that a younger generation would be coming to for advice. Advice on how I became so ok with myself. I have to tell you that it feels so amazing to be able to be in this position to maybe help to stop this crazy suicide stuff that is happening. It really makes me so mad and so sad. That shit was going on when I was going to school a million years ago. The fact that is still happens is not ok.
We need to do something!! We need to fight harder. I for one am determined to make a difference. Just watch me!
Here is the email I received this morning:
I am writing to you in hopes that you could possibly help me. I am some one who looks up to you and is inspired to see who you are and intereseted in your journey to getting there. My name is XXXX, but I go by B. I am 23 year old and I am transgenderd, FTM as well. I have been seeking guidance and some one to relate to for my entire life. I currently have only had the chance to meet one other transgendered person my entire life...I understand that youre busy, but maybe if you had some free time one day you could call me, or if you are ever in the chicagoland area maybe to meet. I would really want to know how you got the confidence to be who are you are and to be proud. I've been struggling with how how I can experience who I am, I'm losing the battle terribly and aqm becoming hopeless. I feel like no one understands me, and no one relates to my everyday experienec...and I don't understand how to come to a solution...youre an inspiration to eveyone in the transgender community. Thank you so much for showing me that it is possible to be who you are. Thank you for taking the time to read my email.